Working

By Donnique Williams

I refuse to Google this
because I should know who I am
I know this is my life.

They always tell you to write what you know
but I feel connected more
to the memories of others then my own.

At this precise moment
I am living vicariously through
a screen I cannot engage with.

Reality is realer than fiction
but fiction is the illusion
I wish my life mirrored.

I perform roles
at every waking hour
I cant do this now.

I can not pretend
to be better at this
than I am at this precise moment.

I am neither here
nor there.
But I refuse to write outside
of who I think am.