Trying To Be Me

Illustration by Ness Lee

You know I’m trying to do it right
I went to high school, I got the grades, I was on student council.

You know I’m trying my best
I go to University, I’m working to get the grades, I ask for help when I need it.

You know I’m struggling to be on top
I volunteer for Charity Ball, WLUSP Events Committee, Radio Laurier and The Cord.

You know I’m being the best I can be
I’m a roommate, a friend, a girlfriend, a sister, a daughter, a granddaughter.

You know I’m looking two steps ahead
I’m writing a portfolio, applying to graduate school, applying to full-time jobs.

All that I am, and all that I want to be
And the only thing that’s holding me back…is me.

You know I’m trying to do it right
It was hard to make friends, work hard in school and figure out who I am.

You know I’m trying my best
Countless sleepless nights, many early mornings, trying to manage my worries.

You know I’m struggling to be on top
Feeling inadequate, but persevering through it all.

You know I’m being the best I can be
Listening, talking, giving and sharing.

You know I’m looking two steps ahead
Making decisions about the opening door to my future.

All that I am, and all that I want to be,
And the only one who can get me there…is me.