Sometimes I sit alone and watch videos of people falling into pools.
That moment they first hit the water is my favorite thing.
Their faces fill with an uncanny sense of certainty.
They are forced to surrender to reality; they will go into the cold water and there is nothing they can do about it.
I long to have that kind of understanding. Knowing that there is nothing to do beside acknowledge the circumstance.
There is no other choice.
You will go under the water.